and suddenly all I want to do is drop everything I’m doing in life and be a singer. dancer. actress. all. something that will let me feel as if I’m expressing something directly instead of attempting to stuff my thoughts into words and stuff my words into a tedious, tedious bureaucratic bullshittastic college-system-formulaic way to toss my life into some semblance of order.

Then my mind clears, and I post this, and go on with my paper-writing. Ideally.