Backtrack

I sense I’m about to make some of the same mistakes this year as I did last year, and I probably oughtn’t to.

Because even though there’s a possibility, there’s also the probability that I’m just content to fiddle with ideas and filling niches again, filling in little emotional gaps in my psyche that have been torn open by inactivity or perceived inadequacy, filling them with other people. I should be able to repair them myself, but I guess I do need outside help. But from someone I don’t actually see any future with in another city and don’t in fact think can hold my attention?

…Is it going to distract me and create more problems, though, if I do pursue this?

Probably.